- in saying this, the years of agoraphobic isolation probably didn't help matters here... people fade away after a while when they don't hear from you for a long time... so there's that... 

Some have said of

Me as a person that :

I'm special ;

I'm amazing ;

I'm admirable.      

Apparently, I'm something

Else, most uncommon

Person they've come across,

And they think I'm so kind

And so caring, they love me.

Yet, I'm all alone

With no one around,

So it gives one pause

As to what they exactly

Mean by all of that.

Seems to me if you have

Strong feelings like that

For a person, you'd be

Sticking around them,

Not be absent as they are.

This blaring contradiction

Leaves me somewhat stuck.