Why do I still feel the same way
After so much that happened
Why does it still seem like the first time
Every time I see you
Why do you still rule over my heart?
Though I swore I got over you
Why my love?
Why?

Today, I saw you with her
Today, my eyes witnessed whom
You chose as your future
Today, I saw you live the life
I dreamed for us both
With her

And Today,
Like all the other times before
My tears are staining the lines am writing

How many times will I bid you goodbye?
How many times will I convince myself
That you are not coming back?

I never loved someone like I loved you
Nor will I ever
No promises were made between us
Yet, my soul committed itself to you

I can't even say that I lost you
For how can I lose something
Which was never mine?

I loved for the sake of loving
In you a new hope was born
With you I have known all the joys of the world
With you I have known all the pains love could bring

Call it an obsession
Call it foolishness
Call it self-destruction

But, this wasted heart still loves you.


© Yénusha