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Current Music: "Inquire Within" - Hypocrisy
NOTE: 2022 03 11 13H07 EST After a Long While -
After a Long While
Written 2022-03-11
- perspective : consequences of severe prolonged isolation...
What appears in these writings
Is all of the unspoken thoughts
My quietness won't let me get out.
So, contrary to what may seem to be,
This apparent self-absorption doesn't
Describe my usual nature, way of being.
Whether about myself or other topics,
Talking is something I rarely do, plus
The opportunities are more than scarce.
And now, the problem is that I spend way
Too much time alone with my head,
Day in, day out, on my own in my room
With little to no exterior stimuli to
Spark my attentions elsewhere, so
The thoughts just turn on themselves.
The days meld into the nights, on a loop,
And everything is simply stalled as well,
The need to find outside input's screaming.
Resolving these isolation issues of mine
Is something that's been worked on for years,
Traumas have improved, but not enough yet.
So, this is the only space I have,
And right now, the only people
Around are you who come to read.
You help me get a sense that I exist.
Somewhere.
Somehow.
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Current Mood: crazy becoming fashionable? ...
Current Music: (none)
NOTE: 2022 03 04 12H12 EST Meh... Politics -
Meh... Politics
Written 2022-03-11
- not part of any political anything personally, but as an observer, the 'conservative' parties' mentalities have always been difficult for me... however, what's been going on in the US for the last few years, all of it is stepping into the Twilight Zone bizarre and is alarmingly concerning...
It's disturbing
How little sense
Is parading
As being the truth.
It's distressing
The level of animosity
That comes out when
Lies turn to beliefs.
It's depressing
Being forced to make
Sense of the senseless,
And it being laid in law.
It's revolting
How a fractional minority
Can affect such a wide
Majority for the worse.
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Current Mood: can't sleep...
Current Music: "Quutamo" - Apocalyptica
NOTE: 2022 03 10 00H52 EST Ramblings 588 -
Ramblings 588
Written 2022-03-10
There's a certain measure
Of frustration that's building
And it feels so immature
In some ways, looks for sure
It's just a life spent battling
The mental anguishes of abuse
And as this suffocating fog was
Clearing finally, it's the body's turn
The one struggle glided right
Into another formidable barrier
And the only direction it can head
Is complete dependence, a live death
It feels like life is a sincere cheat
Always interfering with efforts of hope
And so, yes, my frustration is building
In a manner it's never been felt before
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Current Mood: kind of meh...
Current Music: (none)
NOTE: 2022 03 09 14H15 EST A Wish Growing Stronger by the Day -
A Wish Growing Stronger by the Day
Written 2022-03-09
- a bit of self-pity in a silly ditty, I suppose... sorry about that.. my body is in constant pain due to my connective tissues seemingly being on a degenerative course last couple years... can't say that I'm doing well with my new limited mobility... and treatment, well, the meds didn't help, so recently stopped them... no other alternatives were offered by the doctor, so no pain relief as of yet... as for physio, it surprisingly fixed the subscapularis tendinopathy in my right shoulder... I can move my arm again without the terrible pain it'd been for months... but the ligament sprain in my left knee, the synovitis in my left hip, and all the other constant inflammatory flare-ups in the rest of my joints are not showing much improvement... it's really getting me down to have so much trouble taking a simple walk...
Oh, pain, pain
Do like the rain
Come another day
Please just go away
Oh, pain, pain
You're such a drain
Can I not sway
You to go astray
Oh, pain, pain
You're my restraint
Extinguishing the day
Mood's not too far away
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Current Mood: random...
Current Music: "Angels on the Moon" - Thriving Ivory
NOTE: 2022 03 02 23H38 EST Ramblings 586 -
Ramblings 586
Written 2022-03-03
it's the spaces in between
that make him the most serene
no abrasions
no invasions
a misunderstood simplicity
others don't realize they envy
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