This is a rant and I am aware people don’t like rants. I just want to get this off of my chest, for myself. This is something I am writing for me to read when I will be in a better position one day, to look back and see that I have persevered and made som


Worthy

Ten years.
I spent ten years building a career out of nothing,
No big college to my name,
A degree I paid for through side hustles,
Three years of giving my all,
Constantly working, studying and graduating,
Adding accolades to my name,
Extra curriculars, swimming, writing,
Theatre and arts,
And a job right out of college,
I slogged the next 10 years,
14 hour shifts,
The same old tasks everyday,
Prioritising the company over my health,
Over my family,
Over everything,
To one day finally taking a risk,
A chance on myself,
Getting that Masters degree from that big college,
Giving myself a few months off to get my head screwed on straight,
Moving to that new country where I’ve always wanted to build a life,
Only to now be told I’m no longer good enough,
Not qualified,
A few months of a break has rendered,
The 10 years of hard work in my life completely useless,
And while I see that no one is willing to take a chance on me,
I want to take a chance on myself,
Look for a way to do something different,
But I don’t know how,
Just that I want to.

I am completely lost,
I am scared and I’m trying,
Trying to look for strength within myself,
Trying to tell myself that I am worthy,
I am not less.



Poetry by Kshiti Dubey
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Written on 2024-05-27 at 17:08

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Ingvar Loco Nordin The PoetBay support member heart!
Dear, dear! Maybe you have relied too much on effort. It's hard to adjust to the thought - but sometimes - OFTEN! - the solution comes when no effort is done; when you're not looking. Out of the blue. Almost all important, life-changing events in my life have emerged out of the blue, or like an ambush. New worlds, new lives, have opened, and they were there all the time, I just hadn't noticed; I was too stuck in TRYING, in efforts. When I gave up, laid down; there it was. Much love to you. An effortless solution will come.
2024-08-13


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2024-07-29


shells
I'm sure your ten years have taught you an enormous amount, more than you realise: resilience, tenacity, self sufficiency to name but a few and you write. You are worthy, just build on that one step at a time.
2024-05-28


alarian The PoetBay support member heart!
I really hope you'll succeed despite all the obstacles, good luck!
2024-05-28


Lawrence Beck The PoetBay support member heart!
You're worthy. Misfortune is not the same thing as inferiority.
2024-05-28


Griffonner The PoetBay support member heart!
Rant away! It is cathartic. I think Alan J Ripley's comment is worthy of much consideration. I'm a long way into retirement, but in my younger days I came across several interviewing managers who thought I would be a threat and so came up with one reason or another for not giving me the job. It is their loss. One day soon you will find someone who will look at you and your CV and realise you would be a really valuable member of staff. Blessings, Allen
2024-05-27


one trick pony The PoetBay support member heart!
I don't read this as a rant, more of an airing and sharing of thoughts, taking stock. I wish you the very best going forward.
2024-05-27


Alan J Ripley The PoetBay support member heart!
Hi kshiti I think that what they meant was, your
To qualified if I hire her I'm going to lose my job.
Rant's are good, They tell people that your human.
Even if some don't like it, I do it all the time.
Regards Alan.
2024-05-27