- follow up to 'News About My Father'... 

Whenever my family seeps

Into my life like it has recently,

It always brings all sorts of

Exchanges that're emotionally

Draining after a little while.

Now this situation with my

Father, it's clear to me now

That this has nothing to do

With anything my father

Wishes or expressed at all.

And here my brother contacts

Me after seven years with no

Contact 'cause I think I might

Have insulted him by telling

Him I wasn't impressed with

How he'd handled a situation.

And he knows how I feel

About our parents, but it

Never stops him pushing

For me to have contact,

'Cause you know, they're

Our parents, after all.

So for him to contact me about

Our father's situation like that,

I'm kind of seeing it as it's about

Him more than about our father.

It would just not make any sense

For me to go at this stage, none.

So I will not.

It'll no doubt

Only disturb him

If I did, and I

Don't want that.

The man didn't express this

Wish, he isn't coherent or

Even lucid most days, and

He's emotionally as well

As mentally fragile, how

Can anyone think this would

Be a good idea at all, I just

Don't see it, it feels ill-advised,

To such an extent, my brother

Is too afraid to ask him if he

Has this wish or not before dying,

'Cause we both know that in his

'Normal' state, he's never dealt

Well with any sort of emotions.

The man isn't stable in his

Usual state, that hasn't changed.

This is only my brother's wish,

But I had to tell him it wouldn't

Be realized, 'cause I don't think

It would be kind to cause any

Sort of distress to him now.

So I will not go to see him.

He believes in God and Heaven,

I hope it brings him some comfort

For the next phases he will pass.

In the end, I think it's the best in

The current circumstances.