- although things have greatly improved for me in the last recent few years, the isolation is not resolved... nearly 30 years of not being able to get out of my house and be with people has left me severely alone... this is my next step of therapy... the social part of things... context as to why I tell you about all these things...

I'll be the first to agree

None of it is interesting

Or relatable to most,

So leaves you without

A clue as to what to say.

On the receiving end,

All that silence convinces

No one wants to know,

Confirms that I'm on my

Own and will always be.                   (anxiety rationale in this paragraph)

That's what happens when

Horrors are part of your life:

You're silenced during,

And you're silenced after,

'Cause people feel too bad

To hear about things like that;

Not knowing what to say,

Not knowing what to do with that

Feeling of powerlessness which

Has no prospect for a resolution.

But on the receiving end,

That natural reaction is still

A stab in the heart as it furthers

The isolation that was in place

When the abuse was ongoing.

Letting others know what's

Involved during and after,

It's just me talking of my reality

As others do about theirs, it's

Nothing interesting, I know

But I'm so alone to this day,

There's no other place I can,

So I'm sorry if this disturbs you

Or bores you to tears, my life is

what it is, and I can't change that.

I can only keep trying to improve it

So that all those things of the past

Can at last fade away completely.

While I get there, like most, it's nice

To be able to share it with others.

You are the only ones around.